Posted by TiTi on July 24, 2010 – 1:22 PM
Here’s the goal: Read the entire Bible in one year.
Here’s the reason (roll mouse over scripture): 2 Timothy 2:152 Timothy 2:15
English: King James Version (1611) - KJV
15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.
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I want to know the Word inside and out. I want to know every parable, every story, every lesson! God has called me to go higher in Him and I’ve ignored that call for entirely too long. I want to make sure that I do all that I can to do elevate above “patty-cake Christianity”. Furthermore, Bible study–coupled with prayer–is an essential nutrient to the Christian life. Without either, our spirits are weak and feeble and practically defenseless against the enemy. I rebuke that! Because my name is Victory, I refuse to allow the enemy to have an easy target.
Here’s the plan: Use resources from this site [and my new phone's CadreBible application] in order to obtain
- A checklist of which boo(s) of the Bible I need to read on a given day in order to accomplish this goal.
- Tools to help me keep track of my progress and make notes as I go along.
My intention was to start doing this way back in January but that didn’t happen for various reasons–one of which being down right laziness. So I will now start next month (August). The intended start date: August 1st–I want to start at the beginning of the month just so the progress is easily traceable. I have somewhat of a lesson plan that’s not quite developed but I’m praying it will be before I begin.
One of the things I intend to do is make weekly or monthly (it’ll probably be monthly) posts in which I review the books I’ve read and summarize the lessons I’ve learned as a result of reading them. I’ll also be thinking of different ways to apply them to my daily activities and life as a whole. Another thing that I hope/intended to do is to have developed a prayer for open heart and mind that I’ll pray before I begin my reading for the day and a prayer for retention and recall after I’ve read.
Like I said, I’ll definitely keep you posted. In the meantime, please pray for my success. Thank you.
Posted by TiTi on July 24, 2010 – 12:42 PM
Due to the recent budget crisis of California, State employees have endured quite a few changes and alterations to their pay and schedules. The most popular alteration has been the infamous furlough days. Well, effective June 30th, these furlough days have come to an end. The department I currently work for had SET days on which we used our furlough hours and naturally, my co-workers and I, grew accustom to having that set day off.
One of my co-workers, in particular, is a fairly new mother to her first (and only) child and was dependent upon having that day off because it fit around her husband’s schedule so that while he was at work, she was off and vice versa. Obviously, the news of the ending of the furlough did not sit too well with her. The first time she saw her post-furlough schedule she actually grew so angry that she began fuming and cussing and threw a bit of a tantrum. She slammed her headset down, and stormed off towards the break room mumbling inaudible words of disapproval and anger.
I couldn’t believe what I was witnessing. First of all, she was entirely too old to be behaving in that manner (anyone past the age of 5 is not allowed to throw a tantrum, in my book); and second of all, she should have been thankful and counting her blessings. I mean, here we were, two black women, with well-paying STATE jobs, in the midst of an economical downfall/crisis, and she was upset, nay pissed, that we were going to be given our workday back! Furthermore, the specific position that we work makes us almost “on-call/part-time” employees as we are contracted to only work a limited number of hours per year and therefore our schedules (right down to the amount of hours we work) are extremely flexible. However, our office has been in such dire need of workers that we practically work full hour weeks! So in the midst of one blessing–having continuous work weeks with 8 hour days, despite our position; comes another blessing–regaining that missing furloughed day.
It was in that moment that I had a couple of revelations.
- First, I realized why my co-worker was upset. When she came on board, she knew what the position was all about. She knew that she would have a flexible schedule and, at the time, that (as a result of the furlough) she would have a specific day off. She was ok with this. In fact, it was the selling point in applying for the position. Now, here we were at the end of the furlough phase and it meant a change that she wasn’t looking forward to or expecting. I guess I couldn’t blame her for being upset. In fact, I didn’t. I was more disturbed by her reaction to, more than her feelings about the change. Again, she was too old to throw a tantrum. Then it dawned on me, that’s how I behave when I don’t get my way. I get upset. I pout. I storm off.
- Which leads to revelation number two. God allowed me to see the ugliness in her behavior so that I would realize just how ugly I was behaving when things didn’t pan out the way I wanted them to. Even when dealing with our customers I tend to cop an unsightly attitude that’s never necessary. I was reminded that as woman of God I should never behave in such a manner. First of all, it’s not even about me and my plans/feelings anyway, its always about God’s. Second of all, it’s simply not becoming or ladylike.
- Lastly, I realized that our differing point of views and circumstances determined our differing responses. I have been frantically trying to elevate above the position I’m in now so that I can reap the benefits of actual (not circumstantial) full time employment. So news about 5 day work weeks at 8 hour days was a blessing to me. While it was bad news to her due to her afore mentioned childcare situation. That’s just it, though. God doesn’t want us to be circumstantial Christians/believers. He wants to know that even when things don’t go our way, we’ll not only remain composed and continue to lean, depend and rely on Him, but that we’ll also continue to believe in Him.
The lessons that God teaches us and the things that He allows us to see, especially about ourselves, are truly amazing. I thank and praise Him for growth and maturity–both natural and spiritual. I pray that we all allow Him to show us ourselves and that we then take the proper steps to adjust or correct that thing which is incorrect/ugly within us.
Posted by TiTi on July 10, 2010 – 3:18 PM
Filed under Financial, Life
As you may or may not know I’ve been without a car for quite a while months now. My car (a 2001 Chevy Cavalier) has a blown engine that’s going to cost about $1300 to repair and for that much I figured I may as well get myself a new car–well new to me.
Needless to say, I’ve been checking out all the possible avenues for obtaining a new [to me] vehicle. At one point, Craigslist was a very serious option and I was looking for anything 16 years-old or newer, between $1000 and $1500, and of course, running.
After I came to my senses though, I started making contact with local dealerships and giving them my information and expectations/limits/capabilities. I was hesitant to go this route initially because I thought that with my poor credit rating I would get the “are you serious?” laugh followed by a dial tone. Surprisingly enough, all of the dealers I’ve contacted so far have said that they can work with me.
The most recent inquiry was made with a dealership that’s just opened and for that reason was having an awesome grand opening sale. I gave them my information, my down payment amount, my co-signer’s information and the desired (as of now) vehicle and they’re going to get back to me on Tuesday with news about what can be accomplished. I have a good feeling about this one for some strange reason. We’ll see. C’mon less than $200 payments and a low apr!
Hands together [for prayer...yanno, instead of fingers crossed] that everything goes well.
Posted by TiTi on June 18, 2010 – 5:44 PM
It’s been a long time, I shouldn’t-a left you…
I’ve been quite busy these past three or four months. Rather than go into a long, detailed description of all the events that have transpired, I’ll just give you some highlights in bullet form.
-Deep breath-
Here goes:
- Beat my former employers to the punch by resigning before my termination date in order to start a new position elsewhere–my last day would have been June 30th of this year;
- Had to put my car in permanent park mode cause it needs a $1,300 engine that I cannot provide for it;
- As a result of the aforementioned circumstance, my immediate family has bonded with my cousin and his immediate family since he took on the responsibility of chauffeuring my mother, my sister, and myself to and from our destinations;
- Painted my nails about 2 or 3 different times every other week [for the past three months];
- Lost my focus, regained it, then lost it again! To this day, I’m still struggling to keep it where it needs to be;
- Had my ♥ broken–a couple times;
- But don’t feel too bad cause I broke a couple myself;
- Learned that I was SPOILED rotten at my previous place of employment when it came to my hours, time management, and the thin line between the two;
- Opened a Tumblr account;
- Had an epiphany about my responsibility in my household and my role in the family;
- With newfound epiphany to back me up, I took a leap of faith and bought a new phone for myself--it’s actually en route as I type YAY :)–without feeling guilty I didn’t buy everyone else one;
- Seriously considered Craigslist as a place to car shop–I still do!;
- Learned much more about California Vehicle Registration than I ever intended to in this lifetime;
- Ate at a Japanese BBQ restaurant for the first time;
- Tried my first Apple & Blue Raspberry Saketinis at said BBQ restaurant…mmmmmm;
- Rededicated my life to God–several times. Told you I lost focus…;
- Attended my first house party. Well it wasn’t a House Party, kinda house party, but a party at a house–it was ghetto chic, lol;
- Cut my hair really short for the first time ever! (How’d I forget to list this one first?);
- Went to the movies quite a few times (The Crazies, Kick Ass, & A-Team) and didn’t pay a cent, lol;
- Attended my sister’s graduation (2010!). Congrats Punkin! I still say ‘05 is the best tho, lol;
- Put my foot down about a certain someone and their placement in my life. Then I picked it back up again.;
- Failed 2 of the 3 classes I needed to graduate. In the words of Homer J. Simpson: DOH!;
- Fell back in love with ASL (American Sign Language) and have decided to pursue it as a serious career option;
I’m sure that there are many more bullets I could list and include but I don’t think that anyone reading this (hah!) has that much spare/free time so I shall end it here. I’ll try and update more often so I don’t have to put you through another list next time.
Posted by TiTi on May 25, 2010 – 9:19 PM
I’m paying for this space the least I can do is actually use it, right?
Well believe me you I want to but with my schedule, it’s just too hard to fit in some time to actually sit down and spew my brains out. I mean its not like I don’t have anything to talk about. Quite the contrary, in fact. I have: stuff to say, things to vent, messages to relay/share, and a whole slew of other nouns to verb!
It’s sad though, because every time I do get a chance to pay this here site of mine a visit, I can never remember what it is I wanted to say. It’s really quite frustrating. It’s also a bit of a conundrum, right? I’d say that I’ve found myself in a conundrum. Quite a conundrum, indeed!
How’s the saying go: 6 in one hand half a dozen in the other? Wait, does that even apply? Can you tell that I’m stalling until I can think of something to say?
Oh well! My patience is nonexistent so I shall be off.
Posted by TiTi on March 19, 2010 – 2:03 PM
I sure hate when my taste buds tell me to do something that my tummy ends up paying for later.
Case in point:
I just ate a Smucker’s Uncrustable® (of the Grape persuasion) even though my tummy wasn’t quite finished digesting the slice of Pizza Hut’s™ ”Meaty Mc Meatster” pizza that I ate at around 3:30/4:00 p.m. Let me tell you, this thing had ham (sliced and diced), pepperoni, & sausage. Along with that, I had a handful of Lay’s® Potatoe Chips and a diet Wild Cherry Pepsi.
SIDENOTE: While that sounded much like my attempt at being funny by cracking the perpetual–and not so funny– joke about the fat individual who orders the entire menu at a restaurant then asks for a diet beverage, I assure you it wasn’t. I actually did have a diet soda but the only reason I did was because it was the only kind we had left in the house. No, no! I normally like to be sure that I tear down the enamel on a couple of my teeth while I’m clogging my arteries.
I know I shouldn’t have eaten the Uncrustable® but my taste buds kept pressuring me. They kept tempting me with the possibility of deliciousness. Oh, and to make matters worse I can’t just eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (which of course is what an Uncrustable® is). No! I have to have milk with my PB&J. So here I am stuffed to the brim with a half digested meat pizza, half digested handful of chips, and half absorbed can of diet soda then I go and put milk and a sandwich on top of it.
All that food + one tiny tummy = tummy ache!
Stupid taste buds.
Posted by TiTi on March 16, 2010 – 10:20 PM
Well, not everything. In fact, don’t forget what I said so much as alter it a bit.
Originally this site was supposed to be an uplifting spiritually motivating site where I made little to no mention of myself and my daily “goings ons” but reflected more on spiritual growth and oneness with God. More recently, however, I’ve decided that this will serve the purpose of being my personal outlet while also fulfilling the afore mentioned purpose. I mean, hello! The site’s titled: HelloimTiffany why shouldn’t it be about me? If you don’t like that, then scoot on out. No skin off my back.
Now the reason for this sudden change of heart is because lately I’ve been having a lot of …stuff…arise in my life that I just need to relase. Writing is fine but takes wayyy too long and I’m always at a computer for some reason so typing a draft and editing it later will be a cinch.
So like I said earlier it’s [almost] all about me now so…get used to it!
Posted by TiTi on January 24, 2010 – 6:34 AM
I personally feel that every thing one writes should have an introduction of some sort–perhaps its all that schooling that’s instilled that belief in me. It is because of said belief that I will now attempt to introduce this blog and its purpose.
Bare with me. Read More »
Current year [minus] 1987 [equals] how old I am. California native, though I don't surf, tan or live in Hollywood (expand your knowledge people). Hard-working, God-fearing, college student, daughter and employee. Want more? Click About, then.
